Chapter 10- VIP

Bella POV

Here I was, standing at the front door. Could I really do this? My head was completely spinning. I felt like I was going to vomit. I had one hand on the door knob and the other holding a small bag with a nice bra and panties set inside. My breathing was irregular. I kept looking towards the living room waiting on Em to wake up and catch me. He would definitely question where I was going with a change of under garments.

I knew what I was planning to do was wrong. I knew how being cheated on felt and I didn't want to do that to Em. I knew the rule was to break up with someone if you feel the need to cheat. All of these things that I knew meant nothing at that time.

The plan has already been set in motion. I couldn't stop it now. I've fantasized about him for too long. Fantasized about his lips touching mine. His hands roaming my body. The way he would feel on top of me. How his mouth would taste. What it would feel like to run my hands through his hair. I wanted him. I wanted to do this.

I needed to hurry and walk out the door before Em woke up. The longer I waited, the harder it would be.

I walked out the door and carefully shut the door behind me. I did it.

When I got to my car, I knew I would have to hurry and drive off before I either backed out or got caught. My stomach was in knots. How in the hell am I supposed to look sexy when I can barely keep food down?

I drove down the street and out of the neighborhood. I reached the gas station not far away and pulled in. I put my head against the steering wheel and tried to control my breathing and wrap my head around exactly what I was doing. I still couldn't believe I was going through with it. This is not the type of person I usually am. I didn't know who Edward had turned me into. I was thinking bad things towards Rose. I'm sneaking out of my house to meet my boyfriends' cousin. I feel like I'm sneaking out of my parents' house again.

I managed to regain control over my body and walked into the restroom at the station. I needed to change my underwear. I hadn't been wearing anything particularly sexy and I couldn't very well go meet someone like Edward in plain panties and bra that didn't match. His standards were obviously above cotton underwear. I'm sure even his underwear is Gucci.

So, I changed into my pink and black Victoria's Secret bra and thong. It looked really good on me. My breasts aren't that big but this bra pushes them into some awesome cleavage. I was wearing a black camisole type top and jeans that hugged my hips just right and my black 'stripper shoes' as I call them. I needed to look my best. I was afraid if I didn't he would back out. Stupid! What guy is gonna pay for a hotel room and then back out because my underwear doesn't match? I knew it was crazy but I obviously wasn't thinking rationally or I wouldn't be in the gas station restroom changing my underwear.

I got back in the car and began the drive to the hotel. I lived far enough away that hopefully no one would know me. Just my luck, I'd be walking to the room and see someone I knew. I couldn't think like that. I plugged in my iPod and turned on some slow R&B songs. Ease my mind a little bit.

I arrived at the hotel. It was about a thirty minute drive. It felt like it was three minutes. Time seemed to be slipping away. I wasn't ready to be there. My nerves were still on high.

I parked in the back of the hotel. I couldn't have my car in the front for everyone to see. I needed us to be as hidden as possible. We needed to minimize all chances for anyone to see us. Period.

I texted Edward to tell him that I had arrived.

Shit you're fast. I thought you would back out on me. Glad you didn't. Just around the corner. Be there in the next ten minutes. -E

Fuck! This is really happening. I really never thought this would happen.

Here I am sitting in my car waiting on him. My fucking panties got wet just from the thought of being alone with him. I was pretty sure at this point all he would have to do is touch me and I would orgasm all over myself.

I texted him back.

Ok. I'm in the back. See you soon. -B

My heart felt like it would literally beat out of my chest. My pulse was was racing. I couldn't breathe. My palms were sweaty. I needed to regain my composure or he would definitely think I was crazy. My mind never stopped racing the whole time I was waiting on him. Edward, sex, kissing, lips, touching, hands, smell, taste, sensation, sex, cock, orgasm. Fuck! I needed to get it together.

Then I saw his car pull around the hotel. Fuck Fuck Fuck! I can't back out now. Breathe breathe. I watched his car pull into the space just in front of mine.

He sat inside his car for a few minutes. His windows were tinted and I couldn't see what he was doing. What was he waiting for? I wasn't going to get out until he did. Had he changed his mind now that he was here? I took these last few moments to spray on a little perfume. Everything needed to be perfect.

I saw him open his door and I shut off my engine. I stepped out of the car and walked towards him. His back was to me at first. I could see how broad his shoulders were. I could see the definition in his arms. I could only imagine what those muscles would do to me. He finally turned around as I walked toward him and the light hit his face. Oh God. He looks amazing. He's perfect. Those sparkling eyes and teeth and that damn hair. It was completely messy but also perfectly in place. He was dressed in a simple pair of jeans and a gray t-shirt. Even in casual clothes this man looked amazing. When his eyes locked with mine I saw the most beautiful smile on his face. It alone could melt my heart.

I finally reached him and even though it had only been about forty five seconds it seemed like forty five minutes. Time completely stopped when I was looking at him. “You're really here!” he stated. He really looked shocked. How could I not be here? Has any woman ever turned you down?

“I know right?! Who would've thought?” God I sound like an idiot. That's the best I can come up with? Stupid!

We started to walk toward the back door of the hotel. How in the hell are we supposed to get in this door? Do you come here often?

As if he read my mind, “I have a friend that works the desk. She unlocked the door for us.” You haven't been back but like a month and you already have the hook up at the hotels? You must come here a lot. Or be fucking the desk clerk. None of that mattered. He was here with me and that's what I needed to concentrate on. My heart was still beating furiously.

“Oh, well excuse me big baller!” I was joking hoping to break the tension. He didn't seem to feel it as much as I did. Guess he did this type of thing more than I did.

We walked in the hotel and went to the elevator lobby. I was waiting on my legs to give out at any moment.

The hotel was absolutely silent. You could hear a pin drop. He could probably hear my heart beat.

I couldn't even look at him at that time. I really was afraid that I would faint. I just stood there staring at the elevator doors like an idiot. What the hell am I doing? I should leave now. I can't leave. Look at that man next to you. He's fucking gorgeous. Ugh!!!

The elevator finally came and he allowed me to get on first. A gentleman too. He got on and pressed the button for the top floor. The top floor? That's where the suites are. He wouldn't have?

I didn't say anything about what I was thinking. I didn't want to assume that he had spent that much money on a room that no one would be spending the night in. Did he think we were spending the night here? He couldn't! He knows I have to go home.

The elevator doors opened at the top floor and we exited. He let me off first but I had to stand and wait for him to tell me which way to go. He took the room key out of his pocket and pointed to my left. “The room is this way Bella.” We started to walk down the hallway. I felt his hand press against my lower back. Ohhhhh! That fucking electricity again.

“Are you okay Bella?” He asked.

I think I am. I'm breathing but not very well. I have a pulse but it's off the charts.

“Yeah. I'm alright. Just a little scared.” I admitted.

We reached the room and he unlocked the door and opened the door for me to enter. I walked inside and my breathing stopped. This room was amazing. It wasn't just a room though, it was a suite. I'm sure it cost a lot of money.

I entered into the living room with a couch, chair and coffee table that looked almost antique. The furniture had beautiful cherry wood arms and burgundy upholstery. I then entered the bedroom where there was a mini fridge in the bottom of the entertainment center and a huge flat screen TV. The carpet was plush and flawless. There was a huge king size four poster bed in the center of the bedroom. The bedding was chocolate and blue. I could tell it was pricey. Even the lighting looked amazing. The bathroom was gigantic. It had double sinks with black marble counter tops. There was jacuzzi tub and a stand up shower. This was the most amazing hotel room I had ever been in.

After I was done exploring the room. I walked back into the bedroom. I wasn't really sure how to go about this. I've been with Em so long that I don't know how to go about a first kiss anymore much less anything beyond kissing. Do I attack him? Do I sit and wait? Do I make small talk? What the fuck! This is a mistake. I have no idea what I'm doing.

I saw him set his small bag on the dresser and walk over to close the curtains. I wondered what was in that little bag. Condoms, lube, toys. I decided to sit on the edge of the bed and wait for him to make the first move. My mind was still racing. I couldn't even process all of the thoughts that were going through it. Am I really gonna be able to be naked in front of him? Will he really go through with it? Is he gonna tell Em? Is he gonna think of me differently after this? What happens after this? How can we be around each other again? UGHHHH!!!! I had to stop thinking completely.

I looked up at him as he turned around to face me. He had a slight smirk on his face. Even his fucking smirks turn me on. He walked over to the bed and leaned down. He grabbed my shoulders and looked in my eyes and said “What are you doing here?” My heart instantly sped up from his touch. The freaking electricity.

What the fuck do you mean what am I doing here? What do you think? What are you doing here? Can you not question me? I might back out. I might lose my nerve. Just hurry and kiss me already.

I was staring longingly into his eyes and waiting on him to lean down and press his lips onto mine when I felt my phone vibrate. Who the fuck is calling me now?

Chapter 11- That's What It's Made It For.

Bella POV

Why is someone calling me right now? What the fuck?

“I'm sorry. I need to see who that is.” I hesitantly said to Edward. He released my shoulders from his grasp and I immediately missed his touch. I reached in my purse and grabbed my phone. Fucking phone! I looked at the screen and it was Rosalie. Well isn't this interesting. You're calling me and I'm in a hotel with the man that you can't get. Ha Ha! I hit the ignore button. There was no time to talk to her now. She could leave a voice mail. I contemplated turning my phone off completely but if Em called he would think something was wrong if it didn't at least ring.

I looked back up at Edward who was still standing right in front of me looking down at me. Oh God! Where were we? My pulse was racing again.

He didn't say anything. He just looked at me with his glistening emerald green eyes. I could get lost in his eyes. He then licked his lips and reached out his hand for mine. Without breaking our locked eyes, I slid my hand into his. It felt nice and sweet.

He lightly pulled on my hand; silently asking for me to stand up. I complied, hoping my legs wouldn't give out. I was so nervous and would be really embarrassed if I couldn't at least stand. He then reached for my other hand, I again gave it to him. He was rubbing light small circles on the tops of my hands with his thumbs.

He lifted my hands up to his neck and placed them on the back of his neck. He then released his hands and slid them down my arms. A slight shiver went through my entire body. Mmmmmmm. He rested his hands on the small of my back and gently pulled me into his body. Oh God! I can't handle being this close to him. It was what I wanted but never thought I would get.

As our bodies touched, he bent his face down to mine. Our eyes still locked. Oh my God Oh my God he's really gonna kiss me.

His lips finally touched mine. I couldn't breathe; my heart almost jumped out of my chest. The electric current was stronger than it had ever been. It warmed my whole body. His lips were so soft and smooth. The kiss started out soft and slow. I kept my eyes closed. I wanted to stay in this moment forever.

The kiss began to grow. I could feel him put more force behind his lips. He then licked my lips asking for entrance into my mouth. I couldn't deny him. I wanted him too badly. My God his mouth tastes good! It's like peppermint and fruit. Our tongues began to dance with each other. Circling and stroking the other. His teeth lightly grazed my tongue and he began to gently suck on my tongue. I weaved my fingers into his hair and pulled him closer to me. It was the most amazing kiss I've ever had. I could kiss him all day.

He lifted his head and looked down at me almost dazed. I didn't know if it was good or bad. Is he changing his mind? Was the kiss not good for him?

He then grabbed my hands and pulled them to his chest and placed them over his heart. “Do you feel what you do to me?” I nodded. “You make me feel like my heart is going to explode. I've never felt this way after a kiss.”

What? Are you really telling me this? You are Edward Cullen, I'm sure you've had better kissers than me.

“You're just saying that.” I said softly.

“No, Bella, I'm not. I've never been more serious. It makes me crazy. I don't understand it.”

“You do the same thing to me. I've tried to fight it but I can't. You're all I think about.” I was totally honest and I couldn't believe I was telling him these things.

He grabbed me by my waist and pulled me into him for another kiss. I gladly hopped up into him and kissed him with every ounce of my body. He walked the few steps to the bed and laid me down on my back while he stayed on top of me, never breaking our kiss.

He slid his hands down the sides of my abdomen to the hem of my shirt. He slowly lifted it up and over my breasts. It was almost like he was waiting on me to stop him. Do whatever you want to me. I won't stop you.

I pulled him into my mouth more to let him know it was okay. I felt his palms run across the top of my bra and my nipples quickly responded to his touch. He broke our kiss and pulled my shirt over my head. As soon as the shirt was over my head, his lips crashed into mine. I've never enjoyed a kiss this much.

His hands made their way back down to my bra. He gently massaged my breasts through the fabric. Oh God. Take off the bra now. I want to feel your hands on me. He slid my bra up and over my breasts. He pulled away from the kiss and looked down at my breasts as his hands cupped them and said “They are so beautiful.” He then slid his body down and positioned his mouth directly above my right breast. I could feel the heat from his breath on my nipple. Please please put your mouth on my tit. I need to feel it. Now.

As he returned to massaging my breasts, he slid his tongue out of his mouth and slowly licked my right nipple. Uuuhhhhnnnn. Oh God! My breathing became more shallow and my pulse again was racing. He continued to lick my nipple in slow circles and then took it into his mouth. Shit! I looked down at him. I wanted to actually see him doing this to me. I was still in disbelief. He didn't look up at me. He must have been enjoying himself.

He then moved over to my left breast and began licking my nipple. Again, he moved his tongue in small circles around my nipple before taking it in his mouth. He lifted up and looked at me. Our eyes locked but nothing was said. There were no words that needed to be said right now. Even though we knew it was wrong; it was feeling so right.

He moved his body farther down to rest his knees on the carpet at the foot of the bed. His palms slid down my abdomen as he placed light kisses down the center. His hands reached the button of my jeans and he looked back up to me as if to ask permission. You can have whatever you want. Just fucking do it! I nodded to him.

He undid the button slowly. Then he slid my jeans down my bottom and off my legs. I was then laying there in nothing but my pink and black lace g-string. What is he thinking?

He ran his hands from my feet up to my knees and kissed the insides of them. He then slid his hands all the way up my thighs until he reached my butt. Placing gentle kisses on the insides of my thighs; he massaged the back of my thighs. He made his was closer and closer to my hot wet center. Fuck!!! Lick it already!!!

He pulled back and grabbed the sides of my panties and pulled them down. I was totally naked in front of him. Oh shit! I can't believe this is about to happen. He leaned in to lightly lick my slit. Fuck fuck fuck!!!! The electricity amazingly grew in intensity and continuous currents ran through my body. He continued to lick the length of my slit. He slid his tongue in between the lips of my pussy and then he flicked my clit with his tongue. “Uuhhhnnnn!!! I'm so close.” It wouldn't take him long as excited as I was.

He slid his tongue inside my pussy and gently moved in and out. Then as he slid his tongue back up the length of my slit; he kissed my clit and then sucked it into his mouth. With that, my orgasm erupted through me as my whole body shook I yelled out “Oh shit Edward! Oh my God! Oh Oh Oh...... FFFUUUCCCKKKK!!!!”

He pulled back and looked up at me pleased with his achievement. I couldn't do anything other look at him and pant as I tried to regain control of my body. After a few seconds, I sat up and leaned in to kiss him. I didn't care if he tasted like me, I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to feel his tongue in my mouth. As we kissed I reached down to grab the hem of his shirt and pull it over his head. It broke our kiss but I got to see his beautifully sculpted chest. He was so beautiful.

He stood up and I ran my palms over the tight muscles in his chest. As I slid my hands down his abdomen, I leaned in to place light kisses on his chest. His skin smelled so good. It was a mix of clean cotton and slight musk. I ran my tongue over his left nipple and a slight moan escaped from his mouth.

I looked up to him and his head was thrown back. He rested his hands on my shoulders and massaged them gently. I ran my tongue down the center of his abdomen as I began to unbutton his jeans. I slid them down to the ground. He really was standing in front of my in his boxer briefs. Gucci, of course. Fuck! His dick is big!!

I could see his erection straining against the fabric. I grabbed the elastic band and pulled down his boxer briefs and his erection sprang free. Automatically my hand went to grab it. Even his dick is beautiful. His cock was thick, long and smooth. It was flawless. My mouth watered at the mere sight. I pumped his cock with my hands a few times; licked my lips and leaned in to lick it.

I slowly and lightly licked the small slit on the head. “Oh God Bella.”

I ran my tongue up and down the length and sides of his cock. Making sure it was covered in my saliva. I then took in my mouth as much of his cock as I could. The head pressed against the back of my throat. Your dick fucking tastes good! Fuck! I continued to pump his cock with my hand and my mouth. He weaved his fingers into my hair and began to set the pace for me. I lightly grazed his cock with my teeth. When I moaned against his cock, he pulled my head back, looked down at me and said “Fuck, you can't do that. I don't want to come yet. I want this to last longer.”

He then pushed me back on to the bed and climbed on the bed in between my legs. As he leaned down I could feel his cock pressed against my pussy. Ohhhh fuck!!!! Just put it in now!!! I can't wait any longer!!!

He began grinding his cock against my pussy and I thought I would explode again. He kissed me with so much passion. It was no longer light and gentle; it was now forceful and strong. Then I felt his cock smoothly slide into my pussy. The electricity was magnified a thousand times. The current now ran from inside of me out. Oh God Oh God it feels so good. Wait....he's not wearing a condom. What the hell?

I wanted to stop him and ask him why but I couldn't bring myself to pull away from his kiss. Thank God I'm on the pill. I ran my hands up and down his back as he slowly pumped in and out of me. His cock felt so amazing inside of me. It felt right; like this was where we were meant to be. Like a puzzle, the pieces fit so well together.

I opened my eyes to sneak a look at his face. I wanted to see what he looked like while he was making me feel like this. To my surprise his eyes were also open. Could we really be this much alike? We continued to look at each other, never breaking the kiss. I knew I wouldn't last long.

He grabbed my arms and pulled them above my head and held them down with his hands. He slid his mouth over and kissed my cheek. He kissed all the way over to my ear where he licked my outer ear lobe. “Ohhhh God Edward! What are you trying to do to me?”

Continuing his thrusts he replied “I'm trying to make you feel good. Do you feel good?” You fucking joking? I feel amazing!!!!

“It's more than good. Edward....... I...... I......I'm gonna come again! Oh shit!! Fuck fuck fuck Edward!” I shouted.

He held my arms down on the bed and my whole body shook and became flushed. I was now panting and my muscles were completely useless. I looked at him and eyes were wide as he looked at me.

“Why are you looking at me like that?” I was slightly embarrassed and felt a little bad. I had two orgasms already and he hasn't had one.

“You look so beautiful when you come.” He said sincerely. Wow! That's a compliment I don't get everyday.

“Ohhh, there's the hot spot. Fuck, Bella. Your pussy is so hot and wet. I'm not gonna last much longer.”

“Come for me Edward. I want you to come.” I wanna see the look on your beautiful face.

He quickened his thrusts and a few moments later he rested his forehead against mine and pulled his cock out and said “Fuuuucccckkkk! Bella, Oh God!” His whole body shook against mine. A few drops of sweat fell from his face. I reached up to wipe the rest of them off.

When he stopped shaking he pressed his lips against mine and rolled us over on to our sides. I pulled away and looked at him. I didn't know what to say. What can you say at that point? Thanks for the orgasms, bye! You know we shouldn't but let's do it again. That was amazing. Your cock is magic. They all sounded stupid. We laid there staring at each other for a few moments and he finally said “Bella, I can't even describe that. What you just did to me.” I felt the same way.

“I know. Words aren't good enough.” I replied.

“I don't want to get up but we should clean up.” He began to roll of the bed and I started to get up when he said “No. You stay. I'll be right back.”

“Umm, okay.” What the hell is he gonna do now? I need to wash off.

I watched him walk his beautiful ass into the bathroom. His ass was very toned.

I heard the water running and after a few seconds he returned to the bedroom with a wet washcloth in his hand. He walked over to me and began wiping his come off of my stomach with the warm cloth. You're so thoughtful. What man comes to clean up his own come?

When it was all gone he reached for my hand and said “Now, you can get up.” I gave him my hand and climbed off the bed. We both walked into the bathroom. As we cleaned ourselves up I kept looking at him in the mirror. Watching the way his muscles moved and flexed as he washed himself off. This man was sexy doing anything.

He caught me looking at him and laughed and said “Don't feel bad. I didn't close my eyes the entire time.” I was totally shocked. “I wanted to memorize how your face looks during sex.” Whoa! Really?

I set the rag down on the edge of the sink and walked over to him. I put my hand on my hip and looked up into his eyes and said “Well, did you like what you see?”

He grabbed my waist and pulled me into him and said “You know I did. I just told you how beautiful you are when you come. Don't act crazy!” He then leaned down to kiss me again. I wrapped my arms around his neck and deepened the kiss. After a few moments, he released me from his grip and tapped me on the butt and said “You better get out of here before you get in trouble.” Was he serious? Did he want me to leave already?

I sadly walked into the bedroom and put on my bra and panties. As I reached for my jeans he grabbed them from me. “What are you doing?” He asked.

“You told me to get out of here.” I said softly.

He laughed under his breath and said “I meant get out of the bathroom before I had to take you right there. Not get out of the hotel.”

Stupid! “Oh.” I said as I looked down at the ground.

“Come here crazy” he said laughingly. He pulled me onto the bed with him. We laid for a while just touching and looking at each other. We didn't say anything. We didn't need to say anything. Our actions had said it all. Even my mind was silent. I was simply trying to take it all in. To etch every part of him into my mind permanently.

Edward finally broke the silence and said “Bella, I know it's late and you probably have to go but would it be greedy of me to ask for one more time?” Greedy? Hell! I'd be the greedy one. Of course you can have it again. Who knows if this will ever happen again.

“You don't have to ask Edward. You can have me as long as you like.” He reached over kissing me again. This time didn't take as long to get started. He reached around and unhooked my bra. He then slid my panties off as I pulled down his boxer briefs. I grabbed his cock and stroked it. He was already hard. He reached his hand down and stroked my pussy. I was already wet from the touching we had been doing.

I rolled him onto his back and straddled his waist. I took his cock and impaled myself on it. He rested his hands on my hips and let out a small moan. As I rocked back and forth I placed his hands onto my breasts. “Mmmmmmm Edward your hands feel so good on me.” He massaged my breasts and I began to rock quicker against him. I could feel my orgasm quickly approaching. He then rose up and sucked on my right breast. That was all it took for my orgasm to overcome me. I threw my head back and shouted “Shit..... Edward.....Oh God... I'm gonna come....... Fuck.....Edward!”

He laid back down and started rocking against him as fast as I could. I wanted him to come again. I wanted to see that look on his face one more time.

“Bella....... you're.....gonna.....make....me.....come.......oh shit Bella!!!” He yelled as he firmly grasped my hips and pumped his come inside of me. Oh shit! He didn't even pull out. Fuck!

When he loosenedd his grip I rolled on to my side and stared at him. I couldn't believe he just did that.

“I'm sorry Bella. You just felt so good and I didn't want you to move. Are you mad?” Am I mad? I take my pills religiously so I highly doubt I would get pregnant.

“No. I'm not mad. We just can't do that anymore. I'm on the pill but ya know it's not one hundred percent effective.”

He kissed me and said “Oh thank God. I won't do it anymore. Does that mean you want to do this again?” He asked.

Fuck! I don't know. I want to but I have to see if I can get away with this one.

“We will have to play it by ear. I want to but who knows if we will get the chance again.”

“You're right. I really hope we can though.”

We both got up and went to the bathroom to clean off. When we were done washing off I noticed that it had gotten to be really late. I needed to get home before Em woke up and got worried about me. I was surprised that he hadn't called yet.

We got dressed and gathered our stuff. I changed back into my original panties and bra. We left the room and headed back down the elevators to the lobby. I feel like such a slut. Who leaves hotels this late other than hookers? Fucking walk of shame.

We reached the lobby and exited through the back door. He walked me to my car and said “Bella, I can't believe this finally happened. I've wanted you since I first met you.”

“Really? I feel the same way.” He leaned in to kiss me and after a few glorious moments it was over.

“Let me know you're home safe, okay?” He asked.

“I will. Drive safe.” He opened my door for me and once I was in he shut it behind me. I started the engine and rolled down my window. He reached in and kissed me one last time. I didn't want it to end but I knew I had to get home. He turned and walked away. I watched him reach his car and get in.

I sat in the car for a few minutes just thinking. I needed to get my head together before I went home.

I really cannot believe I just did that? This is not the type of person I am. What has he done to me already? How can I go back home and act like nothing happened? Could we, would we do this again? How the fuck can I be thinking about that already? Ugh! Fuck!

I took a few deep breaths and turned on my iPod. I put on some upbeat music that always puts me in a good, carefree mood and put the car in drive.

Chapter 12-Tell Me It's Real.

Edward POV

I was sitting on my couch watching a little TV when my phone alerted me to an incoming text message. I had talked with Bella earlier but it didn't go as well as I wanted. I simply wanted to make her understand that she was all I could think about but somewhere it went wrong.

Emmett and I were having a few beers talking about typical guy shit. Sports, women, guns. I was just trying to relax a little but I couldn't get her off of my mind. I had to talk to her somehow, even though Emmett was sitting right next to me.

Hey Bella. What you up to today? E

Why isn't she responding to me? Did it not go through? Did she not want to talk to me anymore? Had I crossed the line? Is she okay? It sure has been a while since I sent the text to her.

Emmett and I continued in our conversation. “You think the Falcons are gonna be any good this season?” I asked him. I hadn't kept up with football lately and I knew it would keep his mind occupied for a while.

“Well, Cuz, I think they will be decent. Did a good job last season with a rookie quarterback..” He continued talking but I tuned him out. I couldn't help thinking of Bella. Why hadn't she responded yet?

Finally, Hey Edward. Not much today. Just hanging at the pool with the girls. You still with Em? B

Whew! Maybe she hadn't written me off completely.

Yeah, just having a few beers. I just wanted to you to know I can't stop thinking about you. E

Was that being too forward? I have no idea. Never went behind someone's back like this. She needed to know the truth though.

Really? Me too. It's so weird to think of someone all day that you can't have. B

Wow! Could it be true? Was she just fucking with me? Did she really think of me all day? My pulse raced with just the thought of her thinking of me.

I know the feeling but I told you we can do this and not get caught. E

No, Edward, we can't. It's wrong. It will cause too much pain. B

Did she really believe that? I would make sure we never got caught! Anything for her.

Bella, I can promise you we would not get caught. No one will ever know. Our little secret. Just one time. E

Edward, I can't continue to debate this with you. The answer is no. Period. B

She couldn't mean that. I would have to find a way to make her see.

“Dude, what ya got going on over there? One of the chosen few hot chicks you're hooking up with?” Em asked me jokingly.

“Nah, just an old friend. Not really hooking up with anyone. I had a girl back home but we broke up right before I left and now she's trying to get me back. Between all her dramatic shit and the move, I haven't really had the energy to hook up with anyone.” I hadn't told anyone about Tanya but I figured it was time someone knew. I didn't tell Emmett at first, since we had broken up but now she was trying really hard to get me back.

Emmett didn't ask anymore questions about Tanya. He was always a good person to talk to. He didn't pry, he would always let me tell him things in my own time. I felt bad for not telling Bella about Tanya but we weren't together and she never actually asked. I wanted her so badly and couldn't take the chance on her looking for a reason to say no.

I dropped Em off a few hours ago. I didn't want him to risk driving after drinking. I only had two beers the whole time we were there but he had at least five or six. I was still trying to figure out how I could convince Bella to meet me. How I could show her that I would do anything for her; that I would never let her get caught with me. I would sneak around with her as long as she would let me. I couldn't ask her to give up her relationship for something with someone she barely knew. I couldn't ask that of her.

Can you meet me tonight? B

Oh shit! Is she serious? Is she playing with my head? I had given up hope for even speaking to me for at least the rest of the night. Of course I would meet her tonight. I'd meet her in hell if it meant I could touch her again.

Are you serious? Where? What time? E

No fucking chance I would pass this up. My heart was already beating through my chest just from the thought of her wanting to meet me. I jumped up and raced upstairs to take a quick shower and change clothes.

ASAP. You tell me where? B

ASAP! Yes!!! Where could we go? Somewhere not close to her home, somewhere nice.

Leaving in five. Hilton at the airport. E

I knew the Hilton well. It had very nice suites and the girl that worked the front desk was an old friend of mine. I called her and got her to book me in one of the suites. I gave her my debit card number and said she would have my key waiting for me at the desk.

Okay. Text you when I get there. B

I was really hoping this wasn't a joke. I've never been this excited over a girl and it would not be cool if she was just fucking with my head.

My mind was racing as I got in the car and drove to the hotel. How was she getting away from Emmett? She would obviously have to lie to him. She couldn't exactly tell him she was coming to a hotel to meet me. What had made her change her mind? Why now?

It was only a twenty minute drive to the hotel. I needed to calm the fuck down before she saw me. She would think I was fucking idiot and would turn around and go home immediately.

I was almost there when my phone alerted me again.

I'm pulling in now. B

Fuck! She's really there! I honestly expected her to back out on me. My heart jumped.

Shit you're fast. I thought you would back out on me. Glad you didn't. Just around the corner. Be there in the next ten minutes. -E

Is she as nervous as I am? I tried to relax and gather my thoughts.

Ok. I'm in the back. See you soon. -B

I pulled into the front of the hotel and walked in to meet Giana. I walked up to the desk but no one was there so I tapped the bell. Giana walked out of the door behind the desk and smiled to me and said “Hey Edward. I got your key right here. Your room number is 1711. It's a really nice suite. I think you will like it.”

“I can't thank you enough Giana.” I handed her a one hundred dollar bill for being so helpful on such short notice.

“Oh and I unlocked the back door for you. In case you want a little privacy.”

“Thanks again.” I said to her as I walked towards the front doors.

I got back in my car and drove around the back of the hotel. I spotted her car as soon as I rounded the corner. She's really fucking here! I cannot believe it!

I backed my car into the spot in front of hers. I sat inside my car for a few minutes still trying to compose myself. I needed to look calm and collected when I saw her. She must have been waiting on me to get out of the car because I didn't see her move until I opened my door. As I stepped out, I popped a piece of gum into my mouth. I wasn't going to turn around to look at her until I knew I didn't look like a fucking retard. I heard her heels hitting the concrete on her way towards me and I finally turned around and she was right there in the beautiful moonlight looking like the most amazingly beautiful sexy angel on Earth. I couldn't help but to smile at the sight of her.

She looked nervous and I didn't want her to feel that way. I wanted her to know that she would always be safe with me. I would never let anything happen to her. She finally reached me and being the shocked fucking idiot I am; all I could spit out was “You're really here!” Real eloquent.

She shrugged her shoulders and said “I know right?! Who would've thought?” Not me. That's for sure. I was sure you would never be here.

I didn't really know what to say to her so I just started walking towards the back door, hoping she would follow me. She did and she looked a little confused as to why we were heading to the back door . I told her that I had a friend that worked here. She made some joke about me having a lot of money. I just hoped she didn't think I had been here with other women.

The hotel was quiet as we walked in. We stood waiting for an elevator and I could hear her taking short breaths. I wanted to calm her down but didn't know what to say. The elevator finally arrived and I held the doors open for her to enter first. I entered behind her and pressed the button for the seventeenth floor. I stepped back against the rail and looked at her. She was so beautiful and I wanted to touch her so badly but I wanted her to be comfortable first.

The doors opened and I let her off first. She stopped after exiting, not knowing which was the room was. I pulled out the room key and pointed to our left and told her which way to go. I pressed my hand against the small of her back as we walked and I instantly felt the surge of electricity I had been missing. I asked her if she was okay. I wanted to make sure that everything was absolutely perfect. I unlocked the door to the suite for her and held the door open for her to enter.

She looked like a child as she took in the suite. I could tell she had never been in a room this nice. I walked behind her as she toured the room. I could watch her all day. Even if we weren't going to get physical tonight, I would take what I could get.

I sat down my small black bag on the dresser. I always carried this bag in my car. Never knowing when I would need soap or washcloths and I always kept a few condoms in there. Better safe than sorry. I walked over to close the curtains. I needed this to be between only us.

I turned around to look at her, I still couldn't believe she was really here with me. She was sitting on the edge of the bed and I walked over to her. I grabbed her shoulders and looked in her eyes. “What are you doing here?” She continued to stare into my eyes. Was she confused by the question? I just wanted her to tell me what made her finally come here but maybe I didn't word the question right. Stupid!

Before I could say anything else I heard her phone vibrate. I really hoped it wasn't Emmett. She would surely leave after that call. I was certain it would break the mood. I couldn't let this opportunity pass. Fate has to be on my side this time. I released her shoulders and she looked at her phone and must have ignored the call. That had to mean it wasn't Emmett. Thank you God!

I wanted tonight to be different from anything I had ever done. It already was different, I've never wanted to have sex with one of my cousins' girlfriends before. I wanted this night to be special. I may only get to have her one time and I was determined to make her see how unique she was and see just what she meant to me. She was the center of my universe and didn't even know it.

She put the phone down and looked back up at me. She took my breath with a simple look. I could tell she had never done this type of thing before. Her deep chocolate eyes looked up at me for guidance. So, I reached for her hand and pulled her up. I began rubbing small circles on the tops of her hands and I was instantly relaxed. Her touch had those types of effects on my body.

I lifted her hands to my neck and gazed into her eyes and I knew then that I had to kiss her. I had waited long enough and it was now time. I leaned down and towards her slowly. I could feel her breath on my lips as I became closer. Finally, my lips pressed into hers. She tasted like strawberries. Her lips were soft and moist. I tried to resist the urge to deepen the kiss but I had to taste her tongue. She allowed me entrance to her mouth and our tongues began to dance with each others'. My pulse raced with us being this close and her tongue in my mouth. It was the best kiss I've ever experienced. I'm not big on kissing but I would be happy if this is all I could get from her.

I had to express a small piece of it to her. She had to know. I pulled back from the kiss and gazed down at her face. I took her hands and placed them on my chest above my heart and said “Do you feel what you do to me? You make me feel like my heart is going to explode. I've never felt this way after a kiss.”

She didn't believe me but I continued to explain to her just how crazy she makes me feel. Then she finally told me that she felt the same way. I felt like I was on cloud nine; like I was invincible just by her words. I kissed her again and this kiss was much more passionate. We had put our feelings out there and now it was time to act on them.

I laid her on the bed and started to pull her shirt up. I didn't want to push her so I looked at her for approval. I wanted her to know that she could tell me no and I wouldn't pressure her. She kissed me and I knew it was okay to proceed. I massaged her breasts through her bra and even through the fabric they felt so soft and tender. I finally removed her shirt and came back in to continue our kiss. She was an amazing kisser. Did she know how good she was at it?

I wanted to look at her breasts as I massaged them. I slid her bra up and over her breasts and pulled out of the kiss. I told her how beautiful I thought they were and slid my body down so I could taste them. I massaged and licked and sucked on both of them. I could tell she was enjoying it as she arched her back and grasped the comforter. I looked up at her to see the joy I was bringing to her. Our eyes locked again and I knew she was truly enjoying this.

I've only went down on a few girls in my lifetime and I wasn't very fond of it. The girls seemed to enjoy it but it wasn't at the top of my to do list. She made me want to do it to her. I wanted her to get every bit of pleasure she could out of me. I kissed her ankles and her knees and finally made my way to her pussy. It was beautiful. It was wet, smooth, hairless and I wanted to dive in and taste if she was as sweet here as the rest of her body was. It was. It was better than any dessert I had ever tasted. I could stay down here all night.

She told me how close she was and I could feel it as she tightened her walls around my tongue. Finally, her body erupted and I drank all of it in. I kept my eyes on her as her body became flushed and shook. She was even more beautiful during her orgasm.

Her juices were covering my face but she rose up and kissed me anyways. She then pulled my shirt off and ran her hands across my chest and stomach. Her kisses felt like small fires as she placed them down the center of my abdomen. She then undid my jeans and pushed them to the ground. I knew my dick was a pretty good size but when she saw it through my boxers she looked shocked.

After she released me from my boxers she slowly began to lick the head of my dick. It felt more amazing than I thought possible. My head fell back and I knew as she licked my cock that she would slowly kill me with her mouth. She licked and sucked my cock and I managed to hold back my orgasm but when she moaned around my cock I knew I had to stop her. I wasn't ready to come yet. I needed this to last longer.

I knew then that I had to have her immediately. I laid her back on the bed and positioned myself above her. I had condoms with me but it didn't occur to me to actually use them. I wanted to feel her wrapped around me. I wanted to feel every ounce of her body. I pressed my cock into her and she didn't stop me. She felt like satin wrapped around my cock. She felt so right. Like she was the missing piece I never knew I had been missing.

I didn't close my eyes the whole time. I wanted to remember every detail of her as I made love to her. I wanted it engraved in my memory permanently. I managed to stop kissing her and kissed her cheek over to her ear. When she asked me what I was trying to do to her, I couldn't very well tell her that I was trying to make her fall in love with me. That I wanted her to feel the same as I felt.

She came again and she literally looked like an angel. I took a mental picture of that moment so I could always have it with me. I told her how beautiful she looked when she came and she seemed surprised that someone would think of her that way.

I knew I couldn't hold back my orgasm any longer when she commanded me to come. It was all I needed to finally push me over the edge.

I wanted to lay inside of her all night. She felt like home to me. I haven't felt like I had a home since my parents' died. Being here with her just felt right. I laid on my side and just took all of her in. I'm usually not such an open book when it comes to my feelings but this whole situation was different and I needed to her to know everything. “Bella, I can't even describe that. What you just did to me.”

I knew there was no possible way she could honestly feel the same way about me. She doesn't really know me. I don't really know her but I felt like I've known her for a lifetime. Then she spoke “I know. Words aren't good enough.” She was right. There were no words that could ever truly describe what had just taken place; not only between our bodies but in my soul. The electricity I felt from her touch was magnified infinitesimally. It radiated from inside of me now.

I wanted to take care of her and care for her. So, I brought her a warm rag and wiped my own come from her body. She shouldn't have to clean that off. Once I had it all wiped off, I helped her off the bed. I could see her out of the corner of my eye while we were cleaning up. Who was I kidding? I couldn't take my eyes off her if I wanted to. I teased her a bit and then I had to kiss her again. My lips were already yearning for her.

After a deep intense kiss I knew I would take her right there in the bathroom and we needed a slight rest before I chanced round two. I pulled away from her mouth and she looked hurt. I told her that she needed to get out of there before she got in trouble. I meant for her to go back to the bedroom but she must have taken it wrong. When I came out of the bathroom I saw her grab her jeans. I didn't mean for her to leave the suite. Did she really think I would tell her to leave after what just happened? I would stay here with her forever.

I explained to her what I had meant and I could tell she was embarrassed. I wanted to relax her, I only wanted her to feel love when she was with me. I laid her down on the bed with me and looked into her chocolate eyes and let me hands roam her body. It was as if I were a blind man trying to memorize every curve and inch of her body. I knew it was getting late and she would inevitably have to go home soon. I knew she couldn't stay with me all night. I felt like a greedy bastard when I asked her if I could have her again. She had already given me much more than I ever deserved from her. To my surprise she agreed.

This time was much more intense than the first time. We were both more comfortable with each other and the anxiousness was now gone. It was sheer ecstasy this time. I didn't expect her to want to ride me but sure as hell wasn't going to say no. She felt so good on top of me and I didn't even feel how quickly my orgasm was approaching. Before I could tell her to get up, I came inside of her. After the joy of my release had passed I felt so bad for not warning her. I quickly apologized to her, although I was sure she wouldn't forgive me. Why would she? I completely took advantage of her.

Amazingly, she forgave me and said she was on the pill. I was instantly relieved. The last thing we needed was a small trophy of our night together running around.

I wanted to know that this would not be a one night thing. I wanted to know for certain that I would see her again. She couldn't give me the answer I wanted. I knew she wouldn't be able to. She still needed to see what happened when she got home. She needed to see if I could deliver on my promise that we would not get caught.

Our night had finally come to an end. It was extremely late and for her sake I hoped Emmett was asleep when she got home. I didn't want her to have to explain why she was coming home so late.

I had no clue of what to say to her as we exited the hotel. I was thankful that no one was there to see us leave. I didn't want to her to feel bad about what we had done. What just happened in room 1711 was purely and utterly amazing.

I walked her to her car. This isn't exactly the safest part of town and I needed to know that she was safe. I was too involved now. I, again, was pouring my soul out to this stunning angel and somehow she was feeling the same way towards me. How could I be so lucky?

I opened her car door for her and closed it behind her. I poked my head in and went in for one last kiss. I needed to have one more before I let her go for the night. I finally had to pull away and I turned to walk to my car. I wasn't leaving until she did. Once we were on the highway I knew she would be okay to make it home.

My mind was completely boggled. I couldn't believe this night really just happened. I felt like I was going to wake up and find it was all a dream. It would be the best dream I've ever had but I would be disappointed that it wasn't real. She wasn't just in my thoughts now, she was in my heart.

I saw her pull out of the parking spot and followed behind her the whole way to the highway. There we had to go different directions. I watched her car go South and I whispered to myself “Bye my love. Good night.” I started my journey North.

Does she have any idea what she means to me? How did I let her get to me so quickly? I've never really been in love but when in the hell did I become such a fucking softie? I've always been the player; love them and leave them. Now, I couldn't think of anyone other than her. Yet, I can't tell anyone about her or what we just shared. I had to keep this secret; for her sake. I could deal with Emmett being mad at me but I could not let anyone bad mouth her.

This is going to be a tricky situation. We are going to have to always be on guard. I hope she can handle it because I can't let her go now.

I arrived home and went to lay down in my bed. My mind was still with Bella. I couldn't get her out of my head.

I was startled by the sound of my text message alert. I opened my phone to see that it was Bella letting me know she had made it home safely. I then realized I hadn't even checked my phone since I had been with her. I noticed I had new voice mail messages. I decided to go ahead and check them before I went to sleep.

As they started to play in my ear I recognized the voice. It was the same voice in all of them. Tanya. She brought me out of my bubble of ecstasy I had created with her whining into my ear. I didn't even finish the last few and just deleted them. I didn't need to hear anymore of what she said. I threw the phone across the room. There was not a snowballs chance in hell that I was calling her back tonight. I rolled over and buried my face in the pillow and let my thoughts of Bella return and carry me to sleep.

Chapter 13-Beautiful Lie

Bella POV

I pulled in to the drive way. The ride home seemed a lot shorter than it should have been. My mind had been flooded with thoughts of Edward and our night together. I couldn't get the thoughts of his beautiful body out of my head. I kept imagining that his hands were still touching me. I barely remembered any of the turns that led me home.

I noticed that the whole house was dark, except for our bedroom. I could see that at least the TV was on, which meant Em was awake. He never sleeps with the TV on. Fuck! How in the hell am I gonna explain this? How can I walk in there and act like nothing has happened? How can I look at him knowing what I just did with his cousin? I knew what we had done was wrong on so many levels but I honestly felt helpless to stop it. It felt like the universe was working to bring us together. It felt like more than just a lustful attraction.

It was honestly the best sex of my life. The orgasms were amazing but his attentiveness and care were the elements that made it extraordinary. How can I go back to a normal self centered man now? I felt like I was a child who had her favorite doll taken away from her and was told to act like it never existed. How can I keep this to myself? I want to scream to the world how amazing I think this man is.

I sat in the car for a few moments, trying to gather my thoughts. I would have to hide my little 'secret' bag under my seat and take it out when Em wasn't around. There was no way I could walk in the house with it. I took a few deep breaths and decided to just get it over with already. I got out of the car and walked to our front door. I put my key in and slowly turned it to open the door. I set my purse on the table and walked back to the bedroom. The door was open but I didn't hear Em making any noises. Did he fall asleep watching TV? No way I'd be that lucky.

I walked in the bedroom and saw Em wide awake watching TV. “Hey babe. Where ya been? I was starting to get worried.” He said calmly.

“Hey sweetie.” I said as I started undressing to get ready for bed. “I was just hanging out with the girls. Rose is a little upset about being rejected, so Alice and I decided to cheer her up with a girls night in. I didn't mean to worry you. I just assumed you were still sleeping.” I was done undressing and started to get into the bed. I hope he bought that.

I could feel Em shift his weight and sit up in the bed just as I was trying to lay down. “Well, damn Bella, you could have at least left a note or something. You don't usually stay out this late without letting me know you are okay.” He sounded a bit mad.

“I know Em but you were asleep when I left and I just assumed you'd be asleep until morning. I didn't want to call and wake you and I didn't feel the need for a note since you were already asleep.” I said as I was still facing away from him.

“I understand, just next time leave a note or text me or something. I just wanna know you're safe. I know the girls need you.” He sounded sincere. I was really hoping he bought my lie.

I hated lying to him but there was no way I could ever tell him what happened. I was going to make sure that he never found out what really happened. It would cause him more pain than necessary. Tonight would more than likely be a one time thing. I couldn't very well spend all my free time sneaking around with Edward. For all I know, he probably just wanted to see if he could get me into bed and now that it's out of his system he would move on.

I needed to just relax and get him out of my head. I needed to focus on Em before I made a mistake.

I felt Em slide back down in the bed and cuddle up behind me. He wrapped his arm around my waist and snuggled his nose into the back of my neck and all I could think about was how it felt when Edward touched me. The feel of his hands on my bare skin. Lightly touching my stomach and sending heat waves surging through me. The way his mouth felt on my breasts. The way his tongue worked his magic all over my body. The way his eyes peered into my soul.

I don't know if Edward being attentive and telling a girl that he'd never felt that way, was all a part of his game but it worked. I really wished it wasn't a part of his game because he was now in my soul. It would hurt like hell if this was all a game.

“Bells?” Shit, what now? I'm worn out and ready to sleep. He only calls me Bells when he wants something.

“Yeah baby?” I replied reluctantly. I really hope you don't wanna have sex. I haven't recovered from what your cousin did to me tonight.

“Are you really tired?” He asked quietly. Yes! I'm fucking tired. I used all of my energy earlier. Nothing left for you. So sorry!

“Kinda. Ya know I didn't sleep the whole night away like you did.” I said sarcastically. I really had no desire to have sex with him. I knew I would have to eventually but I didn't want to do it so quickly after Edward. It just didn't feel right.

“Too tired to play?” Really Em? It's almost four in the morning and you're trying to be playful? I want to fucking sleep!!!

“I guess not.” I replied hesitantly. He didn't even wait two seconds before he was pulling down my underwear. What the fuck is my life coming to? I am not going to enjoy this at all. Maybe he will just hurry up and go back to sleep.

He didn't bother to pull off my tank top. He just pushed it up above my breasts. He slid off his boxers and grabbed one of my legs and lifted it up onto his shoulder. He grabbed his cock and I felt him press it against my entrance. “Damn baby. You must not be too tired. You're wet as hell.” That's not from you Em. That's the leftovers from Edward. I hadn't been able to get him out of my mind so I knew that was why I was still wet. I was even thankful for it. Otherwise, he would've been trying all kinds of shit to get my wet.

I felt him finally push through my skin and inside of me. It felt good but also made me a little queasy. I had never been the type of girl to sleep with two men in one night and now I was sleeping with two family members. It was enough to make me sick. I couldn't have told him no without a good reason and I didn't have one.

He started his thrusts and got into his rhythm. He began to massage my breasts with his hand and kiss the back of my neck. Normally, this would feel great to me but tonight my mind wasn't focused. I was ashamed of myself and I needed to think of something else.

He quickly had his release and I was glad he had made it quick. I got up to wash off in the bathroom and I literally felt like I was going to vomit. Thankfully, I didn't because that definitely would've been a bad conversation.

We both got back into bed and said our good nights. Before I knew it Em was back to his normal snoring and I was staring at the ceiling. My mind was so clouded. I had crossed such a big line and felt like a complete fucking slut. Em didn't deserve this but I have no idea where to go from here. I eventually drifted off to sleep.

The next day I woke up and realized that I hadn't even checked my voice mail from Rose. I had no idea what she wanted but I needed to find out before she just showed up and totally busted me in my lie to Em.

I walked into the kitchen to grab my phone and get a glass of water. Em was already out at the pool swimming laps. I dialed my voice mail and listened to her message. “Hey B! I wanted to say I'm sorry that I keep bringing up Edward. I know everyone is sick of hearing about it. I was just sitting here drinking some wine thinking about you. I love you and I promise the days of me sulking over Edward are over! Call me when you get this. Love you.”

I was thankful that she was finally going to let it go. I also wondered if she was a little drunk when she left that message. She said she was drinking and it was a little late. Oh well. Maybe she was being serious.

I walked into the back yard to the pool. I sat down on the edge of the pool and put my feet in, waiting on Em to finish his laps. He swam over to me when he noticed I was there.

“Morning Bella.” He said as he kissed my knee.

“Morning honey. I didn't even feel you get up today?”

“You looked so peaceful, I just thought I'd swim a little before you got up.”

“I was sleeping pretty hard huh?” That's because Edward took all of my energy. I would happily do it again today if I could. “It's okay. What you doing today? Any plans?” I asked him.

He shrugged his shoulders and said “Not really during the day. I thought maybe you and I could hang out. Maybe do a little shopping or go have a nice lunch?” Really? Now you wanna spend time? Ugh. I am a terrible fucking person.

“That sounds great baby. It'll be good to spend some time with just you. I'll go get some breakfast going.” I said as I pulled my feet out of the pool.

“Okay. I'll be in soon.” I nodded to him as I went inside.

I started to fix his favorite breakfast. I had the bacon and eggs on the stove. The biscuits were in the oven. Everything was just about ready when I heard his cell phone ring.

I grabbed it and took it out to him. “You're phone was going off and breakfast is almost ready. So, come in.”

He walked in the house a few moments later. “That was Edward.” My fucking heart stopped beating when those words came out of his mouth. Why in the fuck is he calling Em this early? He hasn't even texted me or anything. Oh God Oh God. I knew it was a fucking set up. The whole fucking thing was a set up! I am totally screwed. There is no way I can talk my way out of this one. He probably has fucking pictures and everything. Em was just pretending to be nice and believe me.

I couldn't breath. My mind was pounding, My heart stopped. Time fucking stood still as I waited on the next words to come out of Em's mouth.

Chpater 14- Nobody Knows.

Bella POV

Oh my God! This is it. I should just tell him what happened. I was a fucking idiot to honestly think I could get away with this. I should've fucking known better than to trust Edward. This is what you get when you do bad things. Fuck fuck fuck.

“Edward said he wants all of us to go out tonight. He wants to invite the whole crew, even Rosalie. He says everything is on him tonight. You wanna go?” Seriously? That's all Edward wanted?

I let out a huge sigh of relief. Edward and I are gonna have to talk about some things. He can't do shit like that. He needs to let me know first so I don't freak the fuck out again.

“Yeah baby. That sounds like fun. What time and where are we supposed to meet him?” I asked as I removed the biscuits from the oven and started fixing our plates.

“We are meeting him at ten tonight at Makkos in Buckhead. Do you wanna call Rose and Alice? Tell Alice to bring Jasper, since none of us have actually gotten to meet him yet.”

“That sounds like a plan. We haven't been to Buckhead in a while. I'll call them after breakfast.” We grabbed our plates and sat down on the couch to eat and watch a little TV.

Why does he want Rose there? He clearly told me he wasn't interested in her. Maybe he's just trying to be nice and include her since she is our friend. I wonder if he's bringing a girl with him? Why else wouldn't he have at least told me about it first? I really hope he doesn't bring a girl with him. I don't know if I can stand to see him with another woman. Fucking breathe Bella. You are totally over thinking this.

After breakfast, I called Alice and Rose. They both agreed to come and were very excited. I could basically hear Alice jumping up and down with excitement about everyone finally getting to meet Jasper. Rose was hesitant at first but once she found out Edward was paying for everything she agreed.

Em called Edward back and let him know that everyone agreed to go. Em and I got ready for our day together. Yipee! We went to the mall first. We decided to get some new clothes for tonight and we've also been looking for some new things for the yard. After looking all over the mall we found everything we had been looking for.

We then went to grab a light lunch. We sat and talked and laughed. I was really enjoying this time with Em. It was like old times. We weren't fighting or arguing. Just he and I enjoying one another's company. Em also managed to keep my mind off of Edward for most of the day. I loved my daydreams of him but it was nice to escape it for a while.

“I have something to tell you Bella. I didn't want to say anything until I was certain. I am certain now so I want to tell you.” He said as he glanced down at his food and shifted it around the plate with his fork. He's nervous. What does he have to be nervous about? He knows he can tell me anything. I should be the nervous one. I've never lied to you before and now I'm having to lie about so much.

I reached over the table and grabbed his hand. I squeezed it lightly to let him know it was okay to say what he was thinking. He looked up at me and said “I got accepted into the motorcycle mechanic program that I was looking at few years ago.” He said as his face lit up.

“Em, that is so awesome! I'm so proud of you! I didn't even know you were looking back into it! I can't believe you didn't tell me.” I said as I moved around the table to give him a hug. I still don't know why he was so nervous about telling me that?

“Well I didn't want to get your hopes up until I knew I had been accepted. I've been thinking about it for a while and when we decided to work things out; I knew it was time to do something more with my life.”

“I'm so happy for you. I know you will do good in school and once you graduate you will actually be doing something that you love. I love you baby.” I said as I leaned in and kissed his lips.

We finished lunch and went back home. We went out to the yard to put out our new purchases. We put the new fire pit on the patio and the new tiki torches around the edge of the pool. Em and I decided to stay outside for a while and enjoy the nice weather.

We sat on the edge of the pool with our feet in the water like children. We talked about Em's new journey back to school and about how he was going to be able to work and go to school. I hadn't worked while I was in nursing school and I didn't think it was fair for him to try and do both. We had enough money in savings to last us for a while and I made enough money to make up for the rest.

It was starting to get late and we needed to get ready to leave for the bar. I hadn't talked to Edward all day. I was sure I would at least get a text from him but I got nothing. When Em was in the shower I took advantage of the opportunity and texted him.

Why didn't you tell me about tonight first? B

I didn't get a response from him at first. Maybe he's just busy getting ready for tonight. Or maybe I was just an idiot to believe that we had something more than a one night stand.

I continued getting dressed. My phone alerted me to a new message.

Sorry. I didn't now you wanted to know first. Just thought it would be fun for all of us to go out together. At least I can see you this way. E

Okay maybe I had been over reacting a bit. Maybe he was telling the truth.

Well I kinda freaked out when I didn't know anything about it and Em comes telling me that you called him. I suspected the worst. B

Sorry you freaked out. I will let you know first from now on. I'm really looking forward to seeing you tonight. E

My heart fluttered a bit when I read the excited me to know that he had been thinking of me.

Me too. I'll see you soon. B

Em and I were finally dressed and ready to go. My dress was metallic blue tiered laser cut that fell right above my knee. I wore silver metallic Calvin Klein heels with straps crossing over the tops and a strap around my ankle. Em had picked out a slim fit black camp fit shirt. Guess he's trying to show off his muscles tonight. He put on a pair of nice jeans and and black low cut riding boots. His whole outfit was by Calvin Klein. He hated dressing up so this is as close as he would get. He really looked very handsome in his new outfit. I wished he would dress like this more often. This looks like the man I fell in love with.

I walked into the living room and asked him “You ready to go baby?”

“Damn Bella! You look so hot in that dress! How am I supposed to keep my hands off of you tonight?” He said as he walked over to me and grabbed my waist. He pulled me into his body and placed a light kiss on my lips.

“You are such a perv Em! We have to go or we will be late!” I said as I lightly swatted his arm.

“Fine but you better be ready when we get back home!” he said slapping my butt.

We made it to the car and started our drive to Buckhead. It was a nice ride. We listened to music and joked with each other. I was trying to diffuse the tension that began building in my stomach. This was already a touchy situation and now I had to be near him in front off all of our friends and pretend like last night wasn't the most amazing night of my life. Fucking fantastic! I figured I would have to do it one day but I wasn't expecting today.

We arrived at the bar and parked the car down the street. The closer we walked to the bar the more nervous I became. My knees felt weak. My pulse was racing. My palms were sweating. I could hear Em talking about something but my mind was moving to fast to actually pay attention to what he was saying.

We made our way through the line and into the bar. We looked around for everyone and we finally spotted Edward at the bar to the left of the dance floor. He was talking to the bartender as she handed him a drink and a shot. We made our way over to the bar and Em walked up to Edward and slapped him on the back before Edward even noticed we were there.

“What's up Cuz!” Em said to Edward.

“Oh shit man! I didn't see you there. How long have you been here?” He asked Em as he turned around. He didn't see me at first since I was standing behind Em. I walked around to the side of Em waiting for Edward to notice me. It almost looked as if his face lit up a little. When I saw his beautiful face I couldn't help but smile. So fucking handsome. Take your clothes off now! Oh shit! Get some control Bella!

“Hey Edward! How are you?” I asked him as I reached out my hand to shake his.

“I'm great. Glad you could make it. And we are practically family; we don't shake hands, we hug!” He then pulled me in for a tight hug and I stopped breathing. The electricity that I hadn't felt all day was finally coursing through my body again. Yeah Edward. We do a lot more than fucking hug.

“Hey now! Edward all these women are drooling over you! Get your hands off my woman!” He said jokingly. Poor Em. He has no idea exactly what Edwards' hands were doing to me last night.

We ordered a few drinks and talked for a while, waiting on the rest of the crew to show up. Finally Alice, Jasper and Rose showed up.

“Everyone, this is my Jasper!” Alice said. Their hands were interlocked and they looked very happy.

“Jasper, this is Emmett, Bella and Edward.” She introduced us all and we all greeted Jasper. I could see why she was attracted to him. He was a very handsome man.

“Jasper, it's great to finally meet you. I'm glad you decided to come out with us. We don't bite, not too hard anyways.” I said jokingly to him.

“I'll keep that in mind! It's good to finally meet you guys too. Alice has told me all about you guys.”

Rose automatically went straight to Edward. I thought you were done worrying about him? Guess not. He's still not gonna want you Rose. I rolled my eyes at her as she sat on a bar stool next to him and was doing her best 'come and get me' routine of batting her eyelashes and sticking her boobs out. It almost made me sick.

I looked at Edward and at first he didn't looked interested in what she was doing or saying but then they got up to go dance. What the fuck? He said he didn't want her! Why is he dancing with her? He's just leading her on. Maybe he's just leading me on. Maybe I'm the idiot.

I sat on a bar stool next to Em and ordered a couple more shots. If I have to sit here and endure the monstrosity of Edward and Rose flirting; then I'm going to get trashed. I quickly downed the shots and began sipping my drink. I turned around in my stool to see Rosalie grinding her ass against Edward's groin. The worst part is that he actually looked like he was enjoying it. What kind of fucking sick game is he playing with me? I can't take this much longer. Just last night his hands and mouth were giving me the greatest pleasure of my life and tonight his hands are all over her body.

I turned back around to notice that Em, Jasper and Alice were all talking about something. I hated to be rude but I didn't really care what they were talking about.

“Em” I said as I grabbed his sleeve and pulled him out of the chair. “Let's go dance.”

“Fuck! Okay.” He said walking behind me to the dance floor.

I made sure to get close enough to Edward so that he could see us but stayed far enough away that it didn't look obvious. I pulled Em up behind me and began to grind in to him with the beat of the music. His hands started on my hips but gradually made their way to my butt and then up my stomach and around to my breasts. I usually wouldn't let him grope me this much in public but I was trying to make Edward jealous.

“You look so fucking sexy in this dress Bella. I wanna take you right here on the floor.” Em whispered in my ear.

I glanced over at Edward and Rose. She was too involved in what she was doing to even notice I was there. Edward's whole face tensed up when he saw Em's hands on my breasts. Good! Now you fucking know how it feels. It's not fun to see this is it?

I turned around to face Em and put my arms around his neck. He pulled me in for a deep kiss. I wasn't trying to take it that far but I had obviously excited Em. I knew I had proved my point to Edward and was ready to go back and sit with everyone else. “Em, I'm gonna go back to the bar. I'm thirsty.”

“Okay, I'll come with you.” He said as he grabbed my hand and guided me through the massive crowd. We made it back to the bar and started to take more shots with Alice. She really could drink for her small size. I noticed that Jasper wasn't drinking.

“Alice, what's up with Jasper? He doesn't drink?”

“No. He says it's not really his thing. At least we have a designated driver for tonight!”

“Thank God because I'm not gonna be able to drive.” The bartender handed us three more shots of tequila. Em, Alice and I all clanked our glasses and downed the shot quickly. I was really starting to feel the effects of the liquor. I lost count of how many shots I had taken. I was hoping the liquor would drown out my jealous feelings. Edward knew I couldn't express my feelings in front of everyone and it felt like he was toying with my emotions.

I spun around on my stool and noticed that Rose and Edward were seated on the other side of Em. They were looking very cozy. Edward was facing Rose and smiling as he sipped his drink. I couldn't see Rose's face but I could see her hand touching his chest. That fucking beautiful chest and she has her paws all over it. Fuck I need to get this under control. I just need to accept that it was a one night fling and that he is moving on. My heart hurt at the thought of him actually making love to her. Time for another shot.

I refused to look over at them anymore. It was only making me miserable and I wasn't going to continue to subject myself to that torture. The music was so loud that we couldn't really have any in depth conversations. We all pretty much just sat around and drank.

I would often glance at Alice and Jasper. He would be whispering in her ear and she would laugh like he had just said the funniest thing in the world. It was nice to see them so obviously in love. I was very happy for them. Alice deserved to be happy and it definitely looked like Jasper was the man for that.

The DJ called for last call and I made sure to order three more shots. He was paying the bill and I was taking advantage of it in my jealous drunken stupor. I was severely jealous and pissed off at how the night had gone.

I downed the shots and turned to Em. “You ready to get outta here baby?” I managed to slur out of my mouth. My eyelids were heavy and my heart was aching; I was ready to go.

“Yeah. Let me just tell Edward thank you.” I refused to go over there with him. I went to the bathroom instead. I hadn't used the bathroom all night and it felt like I was sitting on the toilet forever. I took a look in the mirror on my way out. Wow! I am totally smashed! My eyes are so red. Oh well. It's not like I'm here to impress anyone anyways.

I ran into Alice and Jasper on my way to the exit.

“Bella, you and Em want a ride? Jasper said he'd be more than happy to drop you guys off.”

“Sure Alice, that would be great. Let me just find Em and we can go.”

Em walked up behind me and grabbed my hand. “There you are baby! Alice and Jasper are gonna drive us home. We can come back and get the car tomorrow.” I said as I leaned my head on his chest. The alcohol was starting to make me sleepy.

“Okay. Let's go.” He said.

“Well, we have to wait on Rose. She's staying the night with me.” Alice stated. Fuck me! Now I gotta ride home with her and hear her talk about Edward the whole way. This fucking sucks. I'm going to sleep as soon as we get in the car.

Rose finally came over and was rambling on about some shit with Edward. I completely tuned her out. There was no way I was listening to any of that shit. Jasper pulled the car in front of the club and we all got in. I made sure to sit next to the window and have Em on the other side of me. I didn't want Rose anywhere near me. Why am I so mad at her? It's not like she knows what we did. I need to quit being a jackass.

I laid my head on his chest and slowly started to drift off to sleep. I could faintly hear Rose still talking about something. It occurred to me right then that I hadn't even said thank you or goodbye to Edward. Oh fucking well. You can't tell me you're not interested in her then have sex with me then go back and flirt with her all night.

Chapter 15- Unpredictable

“Can I get my tab? Please?” I frustratedly asked the bartender. I pinched the bridge of my nose with one hand and pulled out my wallet with the other hand. Tonight had not gone the fucking way I wanted it to, at all.

“Here ya go. Let me know when you're ready to pay.” The bartender quickly said to me.

I picked up the bill and wasn't really shocked at how much it was; almost four hundred dollars. We all know Emmett can drink his weight in alcohol. Alice can drink more for her size than you would think. Rosalie had been drinking like it was water. I didn't see Jasper drink anything but soda. Then Bella. My Bella. She had gotten entirely too drunk. I didn't like to see her that way.

My only intention for the whole night was simply to see her and be around her. I knew the only way I could see her was to have a group outing. There was no way we could meet again. Not two nights in a row. I thought it would be a nice gesture to treat everyone to a night out. They had all welcomed me into their group of friends so easily. I didn't want to invite Rosalie but I knew that would be rude. She is friends with everyone. Hopefully she could get over our failed date and we could be civilized to each other. Then she gets here and is basically shoving her tits in my face. Could she really think she still had a chance?

I wanted to tell her 'Move the fuck on bitch. You are not Bella.' but I could never say that out loud. So I sat there and listened to her ramble on about nothing when all I wanted to do was sneak glances at Bella. She looked so beautiful in that dress. That shade of blue looked amazing against her complexion. Every time I looked past Rose and over to everyone else, Bella had her back to me and at the time I couldn't understand why. Why wouldn't she look at me anymore? It was seriously fucking with my head. Last night was a night I would never forget. She had to know that. How could she not know that?

“Here ya go. Keep the change. Thanks for everything tonight.” I handed her the cash and turned to walk out of the bar.

Everyone had already left. Jasper had volunteered to take everyone home. I told him that I would get my own ride. I didn't want to be stuck in a car with Bella and Rosalie. I could see it now. Bella sitting with Emmett and his hands all over her while Rose was damn near trying to rape me. I didn't want to see that at all. The thoughts of Emmett's hands on Bella was very unsettling. I knew she would have to continue with a sexual relationship with him but I didn't want to see it or think about it.

I called for a cab and sat on a bench outside of the club while I waited. I couldn't stop thinking about Bella. I knew what was bothering her, the fucking dancing. Did she think I wanted to dance with Rosalie? I only danced with her because she basically pulled me out to the floor. I wanted to be decent to Rosalie and I didn't think Bella would take it personally. After all she was here with her boyfriend; my cousin. What the fuck was I supposed to do? Tell Rosalie that I couldn't dance with her because I had just had amazing sex with Bella last night? No fucking way.

I couldn't believe Bella brought Emmett out on the floor to dance. It didn't bother me at first. Then I saw Emmett's hands grabbing Bella's tits and I wanted to rip his hands off. I've never in my life been jealous of another man but in that moment I was completely jealous and envious of Emmett. He had her all day everyday and the best I could hope for was a few hours here and there. I couldn't take her on dates or on vacations or even spend the whole night with her. He could do all of those things with her and was completely taking it for granted.

It was in that moment that I decided I had to let her go. I had to make her see what an asshole I really am. Make her see what a player I am. Make her think last night was a one time thing. It was for her own good. She loves Emmett and he loves her. The best thing for me to do is to make her hate me. So, I started to pretend to enjoy myself with Rosalie. I let her grind on me and touch and rub on me. I needed Bella to see it and decide that I was no good for her.

It was clear she was trying to make me jealous and it worked but I could not sit around and play childish games with her. The dance with Rosalie started innocently but I made it seem like there was more to it when Bella began her drunken games.

I was sacrificing my own wants and desires for her peace of mind. Without me should could go back to her happy little life with Emmett and not have to lie to him.

I thought I was doing the right thing until last call came and she drank three shots back to back and then disappeared. Emmett came over to say thanks but Bella never did.

I thought she would come tell me goodbye and I could at least get one last hug. One last smell of her hair. One last shot of electricity. It wasn't until I saw everyone walk out the door that I knew I had made the wrong decision. I wasn't helping her; I was hurting her. Deep down I didn't want her to think she was just a fling or that she didn't mean anything to me.

The truth was she had made me feel more alive on the inside than any other woman ever had. I needed to talk to her and let her make the decision for herself. She needed to decide if she wanted to see me or not. I thought if I made her not want me it wouldn't hurt as bad. I was wrong. It hurt like hell.

When in the fuck did I become incapable of making a fucking decision? Make her hate you; no make her love you. Love her; leave her. Why does she do this to me? I barely know her and I swear I can't live without her. What the fuck?

I sat there on that bench for what seemed like fucking endless hours. In reality it had only been about twenty minutes. I couldn't make a fucking decision on what to do about her. I want her so badly but I don't want to hurt my cousin. I never should've fucking started this shit. I should've just ignored the attraction.

Finally, the taxi arrived. I climbed in and gave my address to the driver. It was late and I was confused. I was hoping to get home and get some sleep and wake up with a new perspective in the morning. Maybe Bella would text me and let me know what she's thinking. Probably not but I had to hope.

The driver pulled into my neighborhood and as we turned the corner onto my street I noticed a car in front of my house. It was a car I didn't recognize. As we got closer to my house I noticed a sticker on the back of the car that indicated it was a rental. Who the fuck is at my house at four in the morning in a fucking rental car?

We pulled into the driveway and I paid the driver. I exited the car and walked down my driveway to the unknown car.

My heartbeat was racing. No one even knows where I live. I couldn't fucking fathom who would be in the car.

I approached the car and noticed someone laid back in the drivers seat with a coat over their head. I tapped on the drivers side window. I wasn't gonna have random people sitting in front of my house.

After a few taps on the glass the coat began to move.

“Who the fuck are you and why are you in front of my house?” I shouted at the car.

Finally the coat was removed and I couldn't fucking believe who it was. Motherfucker! This is a fucking joke? Right God? You can't be serious!

“Edward? Oh my God! Where have you been all night?” Tanya squealed at me as she started to get out of the car.

I moved out of the way and let her exit the car. She immediately wrapped her arms around me and kissed my cheek. I just stood there in complete disbelief.

She finally released me from her embrace.

“What are you doing here Tanya?” I asked roughly.

“I missed you. I wanted to see you. Is that a crime?” She had the biggest shit eating grin on her face.

I couldn't believe she was really here. Why would she come down here when I won't even answer her calls? Women are really fucking baffling me lately.

I couldn't deny that she looked good but then again I haven't been away from her that long. The last time I saw her was when we broke up in Chicago.

“It's late as hell Tanya. You should've told me you were coming.” I said as I started to walk towards my front door.

I heard her following behind me. “I did tell you. I left you a message.”

Fuck! That must have been the messages I didn't bother to listen to. I'm gonna have to actually start listening to those damn things.

“Oh.” I said as I opened the door to my house. She walked in right behind me. “Well come on in Tanya. Make yourself at home.” I said sarcastically.

“Wow! Eddie, this is a beautiful house. If I had known...” She began to trail off as she visually raped my house.

“If you had known I was gonna have such a nice house, you would have wanted to move with me? Right?” I interrupted her as I sat down on the couch.

“Well, maybe.” She responded as she started to walk towards me.

Tanya definitely works my nerves but she was the closest thing I had to love; before Bella. I didn't think I still had feelings for her. She really changed my view of her when we broke up.

She stood in between my legs, looking down at me. She bent over and ran her hands up my thighs. I quickly pushed them away.

“What are you doing Tanya? You didn't want to uproot your life for me remember? Don't act like you want me now.”

She looked hurt. “I've always wanted you Eddie.”

“Don't call me Eddie. You know I hate that shit.” I really did hate it but I was also trying to be a hard ass. She had hurt me by refusing to move down here with me and I refused to let her back in so easily.

She again started to run her hands up my thighs. “Edward, you know I still love you. I loved you then. I love you now.” She was now eye to eye with me. “I thought I could let you go. That my life in Chicago was too important. I didn't realize that I don't have a life without you. This time without you has been terrible.”

It's too late now. Bella has shown me the light and you are not in it.

Who the fuck am I kidding? Bella has a boyfriend. Has been with him for years. Why did I think she would leave him for me? Why did I think I could ever be more than a fling for her? Maybe it was all lust. Maybe Tanya is who I should be with.

She straddled herself on my hips and ran her fingers through my hair as she leaned in to kiss my neck. I couldn't deny that it felt good.

I could do all of the things with Tanya that I couldn't do with Bella.

It would never work with Bella anyways. We couldn't be together even if she dumped Emmett. Everyone would know that we had been lying.

“Tanya, you can't just show up here and expect me to welcome you with open arms.” I said as she continued to place light kisses along my neck line.

“I know Edward. I'm going to show you how much you mean to me. I'm going to be the woman you want me to be. Just give me another chance. Please?”

Fuck me! What that fuck do I do now? I thought I was confused before. Now I have no fucking clue. I thought Tanya had forgotten about me. I didn't know she would show up out of the fucking blue.

“Tanya, even if I wanted to give you another chance. How would it work? You still live in Chicago. I live in Atlanta. We gonna do a long distance relationship?”

She sat up and looked into my eyes; still running her fingers through my hair. “Baby, we can make this work. I will do whatever needs to be done to fix this.”

Really? She really wanted to do this? Could I even do this?

“You have to realize that I am not moving back to Chicago. This is my home. Chicago was temporary. If this works, are you going to move down here?” She didn't want to leave Chicago before and I needed her to know that I wouldn't be coming back to Chicago. I had been without my family long enough. This was my home.

“I know. I know. I promise if you give me another chance, when the time comes I will make the move. For you. For us.” It almost sounded as if she was pleading with me.

“I'll think about it Tanya. I need to sleep on it.”

“Okay. That's acceptable. I understand. Thank you.” Then she kissed my lips.

I was unsure of how to react but it felt nice. It felt comfortable.

I pulled out of the kiss. “Do you have a hotel room?” I asked her.

“Well, I was sort of hoping to stay with you.” She said shyly.

Fucking fantastic.

“Speaking of, how did you know where I live?” I asked her. I really wanted to fucking know.

“You know I have my ways. The internet is a very useful tool.”

“Figures. Well it is late and I'm tired.” I said as I pushed her to the side of me and onto the couch. “I am gonna go to bed but there is a spare room on the second floor. You are welcome to use it.” I couldn't let her drive around in a new city at five in the morning.

I began to walk up the stairs. My room is on the third floor and I didn't want her in my bed tonight. My mind was too clouded and she would only try to have sex with me.

“Okay. Good night Edward. I love you.”

I didn't even respond. This night had been more than I fucking bargained for and although I do still have feelings for her, I wasn't going to tell her I loved her.

I made it to my bedroom and locked the door behind me. I removed my clothes as I walked toward the bathroom. Leaving my clothes lying all over the floor. I needed to take a shower and relax my body for a while.

I started the shower and when it was warm I climbed in. I let me head fall back and felt the water run down my tense muscles. I sat down on the bench in the back of the shower and let the steam surround me.

What am I going to do now? Was Tanya serious? She was dead set against coming to Atlanta and now she wants to do whatever I say? This wasn't her. She wasn't the type to do what I wanted. She always did what she wanted.

Could I get back together with her and forget about Bella?

She couldn't expect to me to sit around and wait for her; could she? Would I if she wanted me to?