I needed to get my shit together and start working on a plan to get Bella back. I couldn't sit around on my ass anymore and feel sorry for myself. That wasn't going to prove my love for her. It was making me look and feel like a fucking chump. I am a man and men do ridiculous things to get women back.
But what the fuck do I do? Who the fuck could I ask about this? I don't know anyone that has been in the shitty of a situation. I am on my fucking own with this one. There isn't anything I wouldn't do for her. Hell, I would tell Emmett to his face what we had done if she wanted me to. I would put up a fucking billboard proclaiming my love for her if she asked. I was fucking shameless and I knew it. She had me whipped and she didn't even know it.
I needed to share something with Bella that I had never shared with anyone else. The only other person that knew the real reason I moved to Chicago was dead. I needed to tell her why I had moved there. I needed to tell her where my money came from. I knew she was curious about it. Who wouldn't be? I obviously don't have a job but I always have money and then I bought this big ass house. She was too nice to just come out and ask. I needed to tell her my family secrets. Things I wouldn't even tell the rest of my family.
But I couldn't just call her up and tell her. I had to make it special. I knew what I needed to do. I just hoped she would agree to meet me.