Chapter 19 Teaser

“Bella, I'm sorry but do you know how it feels to be in love with the same woman as your cousin? It fucking makes me sick. She's nothing to you. He's my cousin. It's a lot harder for me.”



“What the fuck does that have to do with it? You still lied to me. That's the fucking point, Edward. And you're not in love with me or you wouldn't have lied. So don't even try to pull that card.” I spat at him.



“I know that lying to you was wrong and I'm really really sorry but I'm not the only one lying to you.”



I looked at him quizzically. “What does that mean? Who are you talking about?”



“I'm talking about your precious Emmett.”



“Emmett? What is he lying to me about?” I really didn't know what he was trying to say. Quit trying to take the focus off of you.

Chapter 21 Teaser

The flood of emotions surprised me as I drove home. One second, I was crying. The next, I was angry and cussing. The next, I was calm. It was completely crazy.

I got back home and laid in the bed. My head was still spinning and my emotions were over flowing and there was no way I was getting anymore sleep.

I cleaned every inch of the house that morning while I waited on Em to come home. He would eventually have to come home and I couldn't wait to hear his excuses.

It was ten in the morning when I finally heard the front door open. My heart began to race. My breathing increased. I knew there was about to be a big argument and I was ready for it. He walked into the living room and he looked totally shocked to find me sitting on the couch.


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Uh oh! There's a storm coming!!!!!

Chapter 22 Teaser

I needed to get my shit together and start working on a plan to get Bella back. I couldn't sit around on my ass anymore and feel sorry for myself. That wasn't going to prove my love for her. It was making me look and feel like a fucking chump. I am a man and men do ridiculous things to get women back.



But what the fuck do I do? Who the fuck could I ask about this? I don't know anyone that has been in the shitty of a situation. I am on my fucking own with this one. There isn't anything I wouldn't do for her. Hell, I would tell Emmett to his face what we had done if she wanted me to. I would put up a fucking billboard proclaiming my love for her if she asked. I was fucking shameless and I knew it. She had me whipped and she didn't even know it.



I needed to share something with Bella that I had never shared with anyone else. The only other person that knew the real reason I moved to Chicago was dead. I needed to tell her why I had moved there. I needed to tell her where my money came from. I knew she was curious about it. Who wouldn't be? I obviously don't have a job but I always have money and then I bought this big ass house. She was too nice to just come out and ask. I needed to tell her my family secrets. Things I wouldn't even tell the rest of my family.



But I couldn't just call her up and tell her. I had to make it special. I knew what I needed to do. I just hoped she would agree to meet me.

Chapter 23 Teaser

My mind was racing as I sat on the edge of my bed. It felt like I had been up here waiting on her for days. I had only came upstairs when I saw that she was pulling in the driveway. In all actuality, it had only been about thirty minutes. I couldn't control my thoughts. Did I go too far with all of this? Was is too much too soon? Would she think I was trying to buy her love? Would she think that all I have is money to throw around? Would she think I was that shallow? Would she believe me when I told her all of these things tonight? Would she walk out on me again?



Until this night, I've never been insecure about anything in my life. I've never been so afraid of being rejected but the fact that she has rejected me twice before was killing my self esteem.



I need her to know how much she means to me. I need her to understand that I will do anything for her.

I need to her to know that I realize I was wrong and that I want to make it right. I want her. I want her all to myself. I want her without Emmett. I want to wake up with her everyday. I want to spend everyday showing her how much I love her.



I had to calm myself down. I knew she was here. I had heard the doors opening and closing and I knew she was following the notes. She hadn't given up on me yet. I finally heard her footsteps getting closer to the door. My heart beat instantly raced when I heard her pull down the last note on the front of my bedroom door.



I stood up and closed my eyes. I inhaled a few deep breaths and attempted to relax. I needed to be calm when she opened the door. I needed to be able to say everything I wanted to say calmly.



I heard the knob begin to turn and I turned to face the door. My pulse was racing as I waited to see her face. Once the door was fully open I could see what I've been missing for so long. The soft light from the candles in the room was just enough for me to see her striking features. She hadn't seen me yet. She was looking around the room. She was looking at the dozens of red and pink roses that lined the room. She was seeing the huge candles that I had strategically placed in the room. She finally noticed the small table and two chairs I had set up towards the back corner of the room. There were two plates filled with honey glazed salmon on a bed of rice. There were two champagne glasses and a bottle of champagne in the center.



I stood behind the table with my hands clasped behind my back. I couldn't take my eyes off of her. It was like seeing her for the first time. She was so beautiful without even trying. She didn't need the fancy clothes or even make up. She was naturally stunning in a pair of jeans and a shirt.



She finally noticed me standing behind the table and I heard her gasp. I automatically wondered if it was a good gasp or a bad gasp. Her hand went to cover her mouth and the other hand went to her stomach. My eyes met hers and her eyes looked glassy. Like she had been crying. I didn't want her to cry. I was trying to make her happy.



I walked over to her without breaking my eye contact with her. I reached out my hands to her, hoping she would allow me to embrace her. At least, hoping she would hold my hands. After a few seconds, she removed her hands from her mouth and stomach and put her hands inside of mine. I immediately felt the electricity that I had been missing. It was amazing that something as simple as hand to hand contact could bring so much electricity.



We continued to look into each others' eyes for a few moments. I didn't want to turn away from her. I didn't want to look at anything else. Nothing else compares to her. She is all I would ever need. I gently rubbed small circles on the tops of her hands with my thumbs. I wasn't sure if I was trying to comfort her or myself.

Chapter 24- Teaser

I finally heard the door open. After a few seconds, I heard Em say “What the fuck?” Then I saw him standing in the doorway of the closet. Fuck! This is it. This is the beginning of hell.



I froze right in the middle of throwing clothes into my suitcases. I didn't even want to look at him. I didn't want to see his face and see his anger. I quit breathing and I swear my heart stopped.



“Bella! What the hell are you doing?” I heard as he walked over to me and grabbed my wrists. I dropped ind the clothes in my hands and the fell to the floor.



Fuck fuck fuck!



“Bella, why are you packing everything up? What's going on? Fucking talk to me!” He shouted at me.



I finally brought my head up and looked at his face. His eyes were wide and his brows were scrunched. His mouth was in a tight straight line. His hands were squeezing my wrists so hard that I lost the blood flow to them. If looks could kill then I would have been dead.



“Em, let go of me.” I said harshly. Today was definitely not going to be as easy as Edward thought.



“Fine.” He said as he released my wrists. “Tell me what is going on. Are you leaving me?” He asked with a confused look on his face.